What to Write As a First Post

I've had a lot of first posts before--given the number of blogs that I made but were made defunct due to forgotten passwords and usernames (I enjoyed writing first posts too much that I forgot them)---but this is different. I want this first post to introduce the new me: different from the awkward, gawky and weird girl who keeps a diary filled with "I hate *insert random person here*" entries.

Okay, let me start with my first post:

I lost 200 pounds and I've got a body of a supermodel. I drive a red convertible and I party, like, every night. I'm the hottest girl on the planet----


WHO AM I KIDDING?

I'm still the same awkward, gawky and weird girl, and yes,I still write "I hate *insert random person here*" entries in my diary no matter how childish I may seem. I'm still the same girl who, at the end of the day, wishes she were somebody else. I'm still the pessimistic, neurotic girl who keeps her musings to herself because she thinks they are non-sense. I'm still the opposite of Ms. Congeniality who has a hard time to make friends because of her impulsiveness. Yes, I hate myself. But I'm working on loving myself and accepting my flaws, impurities and quirkiness.

The primary reason that I joined Xiamen Tour is I want to escape from the responsibility and duties I have here in the Philippines. Judging from my third year(which was the most stressful year for me), I need an escapade and just let loose. I need to know myself before I face the arrays of homeworks, tasks and *gasps* Entrance exams. I need to grow--morally and emotionally. Did it work? Partly yes, partly no. (I'm like writing an essay)

Yes, I did escape from a lot of things but I also faced a lot of difficulties especially with certain people. I learned domestic things and probably lost weight doing those things but I lost the Internet and the latest news. I had fun doing all sorts of stuff but I didn't allot time to develop myself intellectually.

Then it dawned on me--it's hard to change. No matter how persistent you are with changing into someone more carefree, more pessimistic, and more happy-go-lucky, if you're not really that kind of person, you efforts will go astray. You just have to believe in the people who love you, and just remember the happy memories you spent, soon you'll forget about your unfulfilled goals of being a writer and how mediocre your first post is. After all, when you die, you'll not gonna think about first posts anyway. :)